on utopian introspection

amidst a distant past and unseen future, i stand on an arena of confusion, chaos and despair. my past fades out in the mist of memories - my childhood, my brotherhood, my laughter and my happiness; as i seek them around me. i foresee my destiny on the crimson stained pebbles as i walk alone. my future floats in the space that has just been abandoned hastily. my dream - a realistic illusion - remains in a state of void. life sustains apathetically with various attitudes and attentions, moods and emotions, intimacies and affections, imperfects and pretences, regression yet contemplations, with few perfections and handful of fulfillments. i find myself lost in accumulated thoughts and about to fade out eventually. with throbbing heart, i could only gather courage to hope for celebration, rejoice and contentment just to let me stand.

a quest arises within and i randomly dissect myself into pieces, hurt my ego, pack my sentiments in polythene pouches while determination flares up as flame. devotions nailed on constrained yet dignified panel glorify myself as the elevated scaffolds of superiority question my extension of thought. so i meditate on self to realize myself within the expansion of my limitation. then i find myself introspectively content with flickering moments of bliss. i realize my own being sedate through these random expressions within the defined periphery.

my introspective glimpses witness self to be expanded with the whole. knowing myself, i know thyself to find my interlinked extension in thee. this utopian introspection is a mantra that relates me with the universe …and … thee- a bond in perfect harmony : a bond of completeness.

note: all works are executed within the defined periphery of size 2x6 ft…a space enough for me or any human being (exception considered) .gallery space was filled with my heartbeat improvised by salil subedi "kanika" on didgeridoo with nabin shrestha on tabla. my apologies since i couldn't include the sound in this website due to some technical limitations.